Who ever feels like the photo below?
As though on top you are functioning everyday just cracking on yet if you strip the layers away you just feel as though you are barely keeping it together?
I felt like this gradually getting worse for about six years!
I didn’t fully realise (well I did but chose not to) and it came to a big massive crescendo this January, I really felt as though I was going mad!!
I had been really poorly the year prior ending up in hospital then on January the 20th we went out with friends for a meal and I had to many wines and well without any exaggeration I was a mess, all the antibiotics steroids and just generally still being unwell didn’t mix well!!
The day after ( as you do!) I vowed never again but this time something clicked.......
February passed by and I started to look after myself more and I felt a bit better feeling stronger and recovering then on March 11th as I was feeling even better I made the decision to start an online fitness program for me! Yes something for me!!
I started the next day it bloody killed me! I’d not worked out properly for years, ( I know from someone who used to be so fit I had just been too tired to put me first!) it I did it I made that first step to put me first!!
Then here it came lockdown! Wow! It took it all!
My two business that I had put my heart and soul into ( well so much so that I ended up in hospital as mentioned above!)
I could have crumpled but I carried on , I kept doing that fitness programme everyday changing my eating habits and moving more!
I was also thrown into doing all my dance classes online ( boy that’s hard work after having a staff of four doing most of it for you!!)
It’s now July and things aren’t the same, I’ve no wellness clinic ( can’t afford a space in the Bailgate with no money coming in) from 85 kids I’ve 10 ( heartbreaking) and something else I’ve lost TWO STONE!!!
Yes I’m two stone down ( 2 to go) I’ve gained a whole circle of new online friends, I’m healthy, my fitness levels are up and as I speak I’m doing my women’s wellbeing and massage work from home!!
There is light........
I wasn’t expecting to write all of this when I started to post so excuse the lengthy speech ha ha!!
But I think it goes to show that I needed this part of my story to be heard, I didn’t want to hide it and just pop a “ plaster on”
Friends I want you to be heard too and that’s why I’ve opened this group a place for you to voice your frustrations a place where we can listen and help each other and a place where we don’t have to cover up and pretend that it’s all ok when sometimes it’s not!!
“ let’s talk” I would love to hear your thoughts questions and concerns in the comments xxxx
Hunger Tip Let’s get practical Ok you have had a bit of background, and believe me I can talk for hours in-depth about nutrition. But I thought rather than bore you to death, I would lighten things up a bit in this email. And start a series of my own favourite hints & tips. I am all for shortcuts that help when producing home-cooked food on a budget and as quickly as possible. Let’s start with a hunger busting / hunger testing tip. I eat a small piece of fruit & drink some water if I feel hungry This is to ensure the hunger is real and not down to • Thirst • Boredom • Habit Can you identify times of the day when you eat that may be habitual or due to boredom rather than hunger? This week you could start to make notes about what you eat & when. I would encourage you to note whether its habit, boredom, thirst or other emotional reasons. This activity will give you a greater insight into not only what you eat, but why you eat. Love Sarah xx www.thebailgatewellnessclinic.com
As I get older I realise more and more how we as women should rise each other up. Last year whilst doing some incredible training I really connected with this! At age 49/50 it may seem strange in life to suddenly “get it” But my life was never conventional, leaving home at 16 to train to be a professional dancer, travelling the world for 14 years or more in said profession in which to be frank you hard to be rather tough and very self centred to make it! I never had children so I was never part of the “mummy tribe” unfortunately it was never to be ( my only regret in life) but I’m blessed that I’ve played an important part in hundreds of children’s life’s as a dance teacher, I’ve always been a handful to have as a friend I’m not ashamed to say it!! But I’ve always been passionately loyal and truthful in fact too truthful at times I can now see this clearly!! I could never “fit in” to working for anyone and was shocked at the bitchiness I found from other women whilst in the “employed retail hell” and found myself getting dragged into that world.... thank goodness once else again my dancing saved me!! I was wild, I was unconventional....... But now I’m part of a different type of tribe..... The 3rd age stage of life , the peri menopause and menopausal stage of life when suddenly for me I get it!! Gosh I still mess up, sometimes really making bad choices, but now I’m 50 guess what .... I’m going to forgive myself, it’s ok to make mistakes, it’s ok to not fit in, it’s ok to just be you...... I embrace other women and I love their company, the talks we have, the bonding and trust, the tears the hugs the laughter the now sense of belonging to the sisterhood!!! I want to Thrive in my fifties and be happy and content and accept myself warts and all!! It’s ok to be you and not to fit in, acceptance takes longer for some of us than others, but I’m there my friends, I’m there .............